Not my first rodeo.

I kept my Ella home from school last week. Not because she was sick or because there was some emergency, but because It was going to be 83 degrees and I just wanted to spend time with her. Now, to some of you this may not be a big deal, and I have friends that take their kids out of school here and there for vacations, etc. and do not bat an eye. But, I've never done this. In all the years that my son was in elementary school and even high school for that matter, I've never kept him home unless he was sick. Why am I telling you this? It's because I know all too well what it's like to go through (almost) all the stages of parenthood. My son is 19. He's an adult now. He makes his own decisions, and is learning how to manage his own time. I see him, and it completely baffles me as to how he got here. Where is my baby? Where is my toddler, my 3rd grader, my grade school graduate, my high school grad? It goes so so fast. I know that I did my very best with being as present with him as I possibly could. I was young, I was in school, and worked a full time job. We still went on adventures and we still spent loads of time together. I'm so happy that even at 20, I knew how precious time was. But, it was such a hard balance. And I know sometimes I failed. I am in a different season of my life now, things are different, yet so much the same. I am still in school (went back 4 years ago), work a part-time job, and own my photography business. Life is busy. So busy. But I don't want to miss a thing. I already know all the seasons of parenthood and how fast they pass. This is not my first rodeo.  So If taking the day off here and there to soak in the sun with my babe is what it takes, then I'll gladly throw my rules out the window. She was so happy and it was such a needed break for the both of us. I let her explore and just watched and soaked her all in.